It’s been ten days since my last blog post. I don’t think I’ve ever left it this long before between posts. There’s a ton of things I want to write about, but honestly I’ve just felt so demoralised to do anything this week. I try not to be so openly negative on my blog, but it’s getting more and more challenging.
On Monday, I had a job interview. Then on Tuesday I received that oh so familiar “we liked you, but went with someone else” email. Wednesday was my slump day – the time which always follows an interview rejection. I can’t say I really did much other than think about how utterly unhirable I seem to be and cry in bed. On Thursday, I was enrolled in an interview technique workshop which lasted most of the afternoon. It was quite helpful, but also very tiring to take on board so much information.
They say the more interviews you do, the better you get at them. So why am I still so bad? The worst thing is, I know I can do the jobs I’m applying for. I have the experience and the willingness to learn. I don’t apply for anything that is completely out-of-reach. But the interview is a hurdle I always fall down at. In fact, the more interviews I do, the worse I seem to become. Each rejection feels like a step back so for my next interview I’m in an even worse place.
When you’ve been job hunting for as long as I have, it becomes exhausting. To be putting in all this work applying for hundreds of applications and only hearing back from one really takes a strain on you. It feels like you’re doing all this work and yet no one is paying attention. So then you start thinking what is all this work even for?
But I’m trying so hard to focus on the positives. The weather is getting warmer, the lockdown is starting to ease, and hopefully normal life is just on the horizon. I’ve also applied for a few jobs lately that I’m feeling very excited about. So fingers crossed that I will be offered an interview for at least one of them.
I know life is difficult for many right now, so I sincerely hope anyone reading this right now is having a good day!
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